How to overcome
To start this entry, I would like you to know that I changed my flight from 11th November to 6th March without a budget for it and no idea how to survive these 4 months to come. I rarely fear the future and what to come because my mind is set to “everything will be alright” and so it will. But a small itchy fear of being in Central America – far away from Sweden – all by myself and without a income and so on scratched my head. I have just started to read very interesting articles and books like Steve Pavlinas webpage and the 4hourworkweek book and is being inspired and more aware of what I can do with myself and all situations and so on. I learned that to conquer my fear I need to know what it is, or at least it makes things much simpler. Said and done, I started to think and list my fears and realized that even though they were not that big, they could be completely eliminated and stop bothering me and I could easily make backup plans if those fears would become reality and therefore release them and continue with my adventurous life and start creating a sustainable and happy way of life.
This day, I have put a lot of time on studying myself and reading these articles and come to realize that I have some fears that I need to break and I have intended to do so. Approach unknown people, especially in the streets, is kind of intimidating when you ask them if you could take a photograph of them. And also to direct them and try to get that natural look or sometimes take a photo without the person is aware of it and having the risk of being seen and get weird looks or even angry reactions. What is a good way to approach this and how to communicate with other people and the environment? These are some thoughts I get and I will try out and work on. I have a great book “Within the Frame: the Journey of Photographic vision” by David Duchemin that helps me with this and inspire me in many ways but still, I need to try it in practice! So I hope that I can share these experiences with you and hopefully you will learn something from it and if not, just have a good laugh of the mistakes and failures that might come up but also the success I made, although I would like to say learning instead of failure.
Another fear of course is to be here far away from “home”, although I consider Planet Earth my home but at least far from more stable and secure environment. I felt that my fears would be to run out of cash and not being able to afford food, accommodations and transports and be stuck in that for a long time before going home. I easily solved that problem by making sure I have a backup home if everything crashes which is provided by my wonderful teacher Alexandra Fernandez here in San José and her husband Marco, thank you so much! And on top of that, I made a lot of friends around here that I think would help me out in case of emergency and to be a photographer and videographer today is really beneficial since I can live and eat cheap or for free at places and in return they get photos and videos. This has already worked 3 times, 1 for the spanish school and 2 for hostels for free staying. This is also a perfect way to have great contacts with the owners of these places for future work or just good contacts that can help you out or whatever.
I have thought a lot about past events and I have come to understand that as soon as I stop worrying and just go for it without any thought of how and if, doubt and trouble, that’s when everything just comes to me and falls into order and everything works out just perfect! I quit my job at an industry storage even though I was offered a full time job with pretty good salary for a 20 year old guy with only 1 year of experience in the work and after only 1 week after I quit I got a mail form a friend telling me that the TV show Big Brothers “boss”(that was a friend of here) had posted on Facebook that they needed an intern to operate a camera for 3 months. 1 day later I went there to meet here and they gave me just a quick tour and we talked shortly and they just said: This sounds good, you got it!
I did not except any salary at all but then they told me that I will get intern salary of 1000 euros/1500 dollars which was a fantastic surprise for me! This was 3 month of a lot of fun and good experience and it came just in time. I did not know what I would do until August (I quit 1st march) and I did not worry. I told everybody who doubted and asked me how I would make it or what to do that everything will solve itself and just by going with my gut feeling and take actions it turned out perfect! I wanted to go to Stockholm for a week right after quit my job and so I did. After 2 days in Stockholm I got the offer and the job was of course in Stockholm so I was at the perfect place to go to the meeting. Then my grandma just happened to have a friend who lived like 30minutes door to door with the job and had a room to rent out really cheap. Couldn’t go smoother than this!
So now, I just see bright on the future and I know everything will be alright and I have already got some responses from universe on this matter and I have no doubt this will be 4 months of great success, experience, love and happiness for me. I hope I can learn more on this topic and give more of my experiences and thoughts to you.
Let go of your fears and doors will open to a whole new world!